Oh well...why do i always come here for the bad news?

I am feeling a bit like Fumika from Shigofumi... i know that it's gone by some months now since this occurrence, but i only got my November Cure now...i was browsing through it...trying to figure out why were they making such a beautiful report about Daisuke...when i see images of a funeral on the last page...my heart fell to the ground...it couldn't be...but it is...it's true...ffffffffff-
Why the fuck...trying, with my poor Japanese, reading that was...
It is even more depressing that i was supposed to go see Kagerou in france some years ago...and i never got the chance...i remember when they disbanded....i was sad...specially because it was shortly after Lareine...and...oh well...their last show at the Olympia...i remember so well. Yet... i never went...though i passed by the Olympia so many times...i was in hope of...oh well, nevermind...i feel selfish.

The fact now is that all that came to my mind was the lyrics for Zetsubou ni Sayonara and the PV passing by my head like i was the one dying, and i was inside the dark tunnel.
It's weird the feeling...then i felt like listening to Onanist...but i don't have it anymore on this pc...since all my stuff got stolen the other day.
Oh well...rest in peace...it's all i can i say in all the despair of goodbye. I am still chocked...my day kinda was killed now...and bah...seems like they now have a vocal on their heaven bad... Hide - Kami - Jasmine - Daisuke...
I honestly hope noone else dies... i always take ages to get noticed stuff happened...i am such a klutz...Jasmine...you also deserved a report like that, but i understand in memory of your family, you didn't. But oh well...
Another God has left the building.

I'll be over it, eventually.

Ps. Be well people.

Pps. I really liked Daisuke and Kagerou...they were one of my first Jrock bands and one that pulled me into Jrock...so yeah... i even have a poster on my wall...so...bah. I am honestly sad.

Ppps. Zetsubou ni Sayonara.

Pppps. Sayonaranodaikirai...

Ppppps. Joey.

Manon.

OMG!

Did i just ressurected my blog or what? Well unfortunatly the server of my portuguese blog went puff and ah uh...peanuts.
Well, why did i decided to come back? Don't ask me, i guess i was bored, it's 4 am i mean... noone goes and do an awesome banner like this one, at 4 am...uhuhuhu i am so good eh? My style improved like hell in two years.
It's mummy Merc's doing... she is a great mummy, and she teaches me a lot of photoshoping.

I still have to learn how to make transparencies.
I will i will!

What happened in two years? Almost nothing <.< Kamijo Sama has new bandie... BURUSAIYOOOOOOO! So far...Zombie is my theme song xD

I am so stupiddd!

Seems like that side of me never changed. AHHHH UH it's so cold, and this is so random. I wish i could tell, a lot of things happened in this two years, but... NO sorry.

Oh yeah, i returned to WOW? omg...my warlock still existed...poor hunny...
Poor Jerzie... i pity her, but now with my awesome CERRI PERRI, i will beat the crap out of everybody who crosses my way (i have this confidence since i killed another paladin that outgeared me like tones). BECAUSE I AM AWESOME CERRI PERRI! NUUUUUUUH :3

I am hungry...i eat like a cow...
i wonder were the food goes... not to my breasts, not to my ass...where then?
Ah well... foul, foul...
Ok, really i have nothing to say, my life was mostly stuck and crap in the last two years. Lost many people, gained better people :3 i guess, i am still lucky :3

<3333333333

Tomorrow i am going to London <.< meh...might find some jrock :3 i wish i wish... last time i bought so many MUCC cd's.

MUCC is win...

Ok, dont make me say anything more ;_; i am retarded at 4 am.

nyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

NIPAH!

Well! It's me Manon after all this time, I'm back and with a new banner of mine! wheeeeeeeeeeee! Death Note klock *________*. I got the last 9th volume from Amazon Uk. That's what a call a freaking luck indeed!

As for meself! I'm ok! PMSic! But ok! My holydays were the same old thing and I really found some J Rock albuns at Paris *nhyahhh*
I bought: Kagerou, L'Arc~en~Ciel, Merry, Moi Dix Mois, MUCC, Gazette, Ayabe and Nightmare!
I can say I'm a happy child after all.
Not that I have much to say, anyway...
Also another bad new from the J Rock world. Kagerou are ending activity this January 2007.
One of my fav bands too, but do what? Go cry and ask for mercy? Life's not that way unfortunatly!
I'm happy for my banner! I improved like hell in doing anything with photoshit 7.0!
And I hope this new year will bring some new hopes and joy for us all in the matters of world speech! This world sucks! And somebody has to do something for our own good.
Lets take arms and fight! We can still save this shit from going down to the devil geez!

I told you I was PMSic! I'm really sorry... not in the moods

Manon

Good Afternoon! Have you noticed something different around Dress Code?
Sure you did! I've changed my layout for the winter version, since yesterday it was the 1st of December. It's getting really cold around here and I had this wonderful pics from Kamijo and snow so I decided to open my Photoshop 7.0 and do this snowy like banner to change for the Autumn/Orange one.
Sometimes it's really good to change. But when you are talking about banners it's really hard, cause you have to change the lay, the buttons, the links, the colours, the music and everything. This time the song is Fuyu Tokyo that means The Tokyo Winter. So it's adequate altought it was pretty cool playing Dress Code in my blog "Dress Code". This music is softer for a winter.
My portuguese blog will also be changing lay soon for a winter version, for this present one is too red for a winter. It's actually my face, but it's tooooooo red! It looks like Moulin Rouge there. I have to change the music too. Guess I'll place Billet playing for it's a bit softer for winter.
I'm so like seasons. Maybe it's because I'm Wiccan or something, and we have to be coordenated with the seasons.
There's gonna be a great hannuckah at my parents this year. And I'll have to attend because of granny, but actually I'll be celebrating the Yule at Paris with my friends Tala and Mathias.
This year we are gonna spend a lot of time there. It's gonna be cool, cause there is always a Virgin Megastore to empty XD. No kiddin'. My stay in Paris is equivalent to 40 albuns of different bands and places. I'm a crazy for music. That's why I created this place. Well guess I'll try to look for D'espairs Ray and Kagerou at Champs Elisées. Once I found there Moi Dix Mois so I don't think it's so impossible as that since Kagerou and D'espairs Ray have been in tour there.
Where is Portugal? I don't know, cause everybody seems to forget we exist. Well probably I would be the only one at the their show really! Dir en Grey were supposed to come here! What happened? THEY CANCELED THE SHOWWWWWWW! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
What a misfortune this country. Luckily when I'll end my singing licence I'll have to go to other country to study and happily I'll have more chances to see J Rock bands act in front of myself. I'm also wishing to go to the Liepzieg Gothic Treffen 2007. I'm trying to get tickets from a friend of mine which works at Napalm Mastersound. I don't know if I'll be able. But I hope so. Lets just wish Mana Sama will be there this year too.
If not... well maybe I'll go to Wacken Open Air 2007. That one I've been going for 3 years by now. If I don't go out of the country how can I see my fav bands? I can't so... I have to move. Download, Wacken Open, Summer Breeze, Gods of Metal, etc.etc.etc.
Today I got a frustration! I went to BD Mania and I found 2 volumes of Neon Genesis Evangelion that were missing in my colection. But...tadahhhhhh! I had no money for the both of them! So I had to buy vol.1 and leave vol.7 behind. I hope nobody buys that! For I can go there at monday and buy it. *prays really loud*.
That's it, my life sucks a lot, and I have nothing interesting to say really.

Big Kissu*

Good afternoon. I know it took me a bit long to write back! Not that I've been really busy, but the portuguese blog server is not working today so I decided to make an AV and post something here on my english blog.
Does anyone have the GRAND PAIN PV? I desperatly need it! I even have the entire Chantons L'Amour and Scarlet Majesty Tour here in my pc and I DON'T HAVE GRAND PAIN!
If anyone have it or know somewhere I can get it. JUST TELL ME!
I've been listening recently to some D'espairs Ray! It's really cool. I downloaded [Coll:set] from Limewire yesterday and I'm looking forward for J Rock no Sekai to reupload the mini albuns and singles from them.

Appart from that! Some people are really jerks! I was playing habbo [silly brazilian community] and a guy tricked me with a virus he sent me through msn! My pc ran madddd! Lucky me I'm really cold blooded! I didn't despair! I looked like someone from Neon Genesis Evangelion while the pilots are fighting inside the Evas. Yelling commands to a friend of mine: Shut the power, restart!!!!!!!!!
Damn you see! Things were getting bit shocking here! But I did get rid of the virus and didn't lost my account at habbo - because I have a paid account! The virus gave the password to the guy but he did nothing to my account so I changed the password and I'm now running my Norton AntiVirus here.
Thank god I had informatics or I would scream like a cow seeing my pc burning fast.

Thats it! I had a 15 [0-20] in my Portuguese exam about the Lusiads. I think it went pretty well for the 0 i've studied!
I've been bad of feelings latelly. I hardly sleep. You see this friend of mine tried to comit suicide because of me [really complicated story] and none of his friends besides my best friend Tala came for help. He is taking care of him at his house and I wished I could be entirely by his side, but I have school, I study, I work, and Tala got fired so he has a lot more time.
I went to the Cradle of Filth show at Paradise Garage [downtown Lisbon], and the show was pretty cool! I loved the opening with Deathstars and all. It was amazing.

Here some pics.

Good night my friends...sorry for this enormous absence from myself, but I have a lot of things to do...You know I must have. I'm training to become a lyrical singer and it really demands a lot of my spare time (appart from school of course). I don't actually have much to post here today... I did this nice avatar so I thought, hey manon, why not doing a post today... to be serious, I did a hugeeee gif for my portuguese blog Pandemonium and it resulted really well. It's with this same pict of Kamijo in "Never Cage" suits. I love the golden butterfly on the back of his coat... I was only able to see her while I was watching the Cinderella Fantasy PV, because I had never noticed the butterfly.
OMG, I'm still so sad, luck me Kamijo still writes in his personal blog and fortunatly I always menage the translations for I can read it.

Well, Portugal... I miss someone to talk about stuff I like... I feel like I'm the only one liking JRock in the entire country. I know it's not true, but that's how I feel. My other friends who love are from Brazil, and they are so far away from me... although I love them though.
I wished Dany and Kelly were my neighbours and we could just see each others everyday and talk like hell about Mana (Dany just loves Mana Sama), and well the bands *you know what do I mean* I feel quite alone on that matter. People here only like brainwashing music like rap, hip hop and kizomba.
It makes me laugh, or at least used to, when our school had a radio place, and they places such horrible songs playing on the audio system.
When I think about it I always bless my iPod for all the good moments.
Talking about that! I finally have the entire PVology of Lareine, or at least almost (still missing that damned GRAND PAIN who always loves to run away from me)
When I saw them playing in my iPod I couldn't believe it was true back then.
*Kamijo looks so cute in all of them* --> I think he is really expressive in what he does, even if it's just an act, I don't care what people say.
Usually the comment is this one:

--> Wether you like or not Lareine... Or you hate them, or you love them, there is never an intermediate level.
        --> If you like... it looks like Kamijo is singing for you and just for you.
        --> If you hate... you just wanna throw Kamijo through the window (go on I'll catch him)

I used to say I loved Kamijo 'cause he seemed like he was singing for my and just for me like whispering into my very same ears, his poetry.
When Dany watched the Saikai no Hana PV she said exactly the same:
         -->You were right! It looks like he is singing for you in particular, like is just you there.
I have to agree... That is what called my attention on Lareine in the first place.
2nd! I could not believe Kamijo was japanease! The only thing there that is visible japanease is exactly his nose. It's so small and cute @_@ *I'm crazy*
I don't know how he does that... but he changed my point of view about japanease people, cause I never really cared about them before, now I'm discovering a lotta new stuff about the subject. It's simply amazing! I WANNA LIVE THERE *_*
Like I could go dreaming forever... now Lareine is over... I gotta conscientialize it! I haven't done it still. It's hard for me to turn on the official site and Kamijo's blog.
I'm so sentimental my GOD and take this business so seriously... Lareine has been my favourite band for a couple of years by now and it's so but so sad what happened that I can't even describe. I don't know if Kamijo is reading any fan lettering around but well I don't know I just feel so unpoetic to write something to him. Seems almost pathetical! He is just what he is! And, I am Manon...see the pointless of all this situation =| YEY I'm sure you do. Nobody reads this anyway then... just unconscious babling!

Stay fine all of you...
My best regards...

Manon no Bara~

Is this the end? The end of Lareine? It can't be... after a lot of ends, is this definitive? I can't just believe Kamijo gave up so easealy! It makes me wanna hit him with a stick and *hug him* at the same time!

Here I have the translation of the blog message Kamijo left on his personal blog... isn't he at least start a new band like he did with New Sodmy! Whyyyyyy? First Malice Mizer in H.I.A.T.U.S., then Lareine disbands? My fav band of all times???????? Damned! The bands of my life always disbandddddddd! This is so f*uckin' terrible...
But I don't care! I'll keep listening to Lareine no matter what and keep bying the albuns that are still missing in my collection, and keep liking kamijo in the same why, supporting him whatever their decisions look like! And here's the blog entry...

"This is a sudden announcement, but due to the absence of members, LAREINE is disbanding without intention to resume activity. Guitarist Mayu disappeared for seven months (Manon's note: beating Mayu with a stick so hard he would die*), so henceforth, Kamijo and Emiru see no reason for the continuation of LAREINE. However, because they say in conclusion, "In the absence of a guitarist, we cannot continue activity with satisfaction," this time they have decided to fully disband (manon's note: why fully! why not gettin' another guitar player and start again?*). The live on 10/31 at (not sure) will be the last, so the artist known as LAREINE will in 2007 have an open exhibition (a personal exhibition?) to completely end activity. The final live will not be a one-man show, and the members and staff express their regrets. However, understanding the circumstances now, please understand that the only decision so far is to go on with the live. It will be the last, but in the 3 and a half years since the revival (of LAREINE) and the 11 years since the initial formation (of LAREINE), thank you very much for your support of LAREINE to be this successful and long-lasting. (manon's note: I'm gonna cry*)

Emiru:
I apologize that I must report this to you all like this.
LAREINE once disbanded, the project called RIBBON passed, and LAREINE returned. I never imagined that the winds of change would blow this way, but I think we should honestly look to the future.
I don't know when I'll stand on a stage again, but when that time comes, but I think I'd wager my life that I will.
When I look back, ever since I broke out of my cocoon, I was reborn with LAREINE -- when Machi was there, it was the original (literally, "without one ingredient changed") LAREINE. First half a year of lives and recordings, then half a year of experiencing RIBBON, even with a little of LAREINE's arrangements, we left the world many songs. (that's probably the easiest way to translate that, lol)
Personally, I think they were a lot of very distinct, different musical projects.
Wow, someday again I'll return to that cocoon and want to make LAREINE's songs and do lives, and someday in the future, with a smile, I want to return to the talented world of LAREINE!
Last, I now thank you very much.

Kamijo:
At the time when Mayu wrote "LAST SONG FOR YOU," it was a premonition of misfortune. That song was supposed to be for Kazumi. The time of "Fierte" was the same. So I didn't publish the song that held such a truly pivotal element. It came true, though. An artist may do that for self-expression. But that prophet-like misfortune was also there, so we also had the responsibility of controlling the life of the people who listened to those lyrics.
To start with, this activity cessation is very close to a disbandment. LAREINE's activity is decidedly not just something brilliant. If it seemed brilliant, and you can certainly say so, there were also ugly thorns. But the flower petals that wholeheartedly extended a hand to hide that lining... No, the flower petals that protected those thorns were blown away by the wind. (Ryan's note: I love how poetic he is even in his disbandment message* - manon's note: I agree*) LAREINE does not need thorns that are more than LAREINE. Thus LAREINE has reached an eternal sleep.
Has the Romance reached everyone?
Could you see the would our thoughts sketched?
LAREINE was our everything.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you to each person who gave us the chance to transcend the limit of everything. (manon's note: Does this really mean full disbandement! Not in my head... nooooooooo*)

And is this what happened? Mayu just desappeared without trail and they don't have a drummer (I could be their drummer and guitar player @_@ *dreams*).
I just can't believe I'm going to the damned tomb without seeing Lareine liveeeeee!
Ahhhhh misfortune of myself! I just can't accemble this still in my head. My Kamijo... no motr Lareine songs? What about something solo... oh 'cmon say something! Your fans are in despair! At least he keeps writting in his personal blog, and that means he is not dead like they said in April.

And this is it... this kind of post make me sad... really sad... just like, I don't know.

My best regards...

Manon_No_Bara